Where has the time gone?! It's been almost a year since I last sat down and put thoughts on paper (or the Internet.. whatevs) I remembered tonight that I had this and thought I should write a bit. Tonight shpeal will prolly be short though.
Seems like lately I've been doing a lot of thinking.. Thinking about my future, thinking about the past, and more importantly thinking about the present. I always catch myself, when I'm analyzing my life, saying that it's ok.. I'm just a kid. Then I began to question myself, when does that cop out quit working? Hell, I'm a 21 year old person. I can hardly keep using the excuse of my age. Fact is I'm an adult trying to run away from the responsibility if being an adult.
It's so easy to let the way people treat you to affect the way you see yourself. I feel like some people treat me as an adult but some treat me as a child because it's more convenient for themselves. Seems a little twisted to me, then again I act like a child in my mind a lot of the times. So who's right?! Do people need to treat me more like an adult or should I make it known I'm an adult? Seems puzzling to me, then again I may just be over thinking as I do most of the time.
Another thing I think about is spiritual responsibility. I find myself wondering if the things in my life that I think aren't happening the way I want them too, are due to the fact that I don't have my priorities in line. Seems like I don't put God first enough in my life so he's holding me back as a wake up call of sorts. A subtle way of showing me I need to fix a few things.
All of this has been on my brain for months, and this seems like the perfect outlet. If you have any comments or suggestions I'd love to hear 'em. I love to see all sides of a situation and I love to have the input of people I trust so lemme know!
Danka
